ramblings of an entrepreneurial madman

I have 2 more weeks in the office before I need to move out, although I haven’t really been doing anything here other than sitting around all day.  This upcoming weekend I’m going to start packing up my things.  I was going to start yesterday but figured I’d just wait.  I may even start packing this week because I’m sure I’ll have some free time.

Today we are expecting to hear back on when our training is going to be this week.  Both my business partner and I are hoping it will be tomorrow because we are both anxious and excited to get going with this.  After the training is complete we are both going to be busy getting things prepared for our employee’s before we start hiring, so things are going to definitely pick up very soon.

I still feel great about everything and how fast things are taking place but I will admit, I do have a little bit of anxiety.  I’ve been the debt settlement industry for the last 5 years, and the last year I was 100% self employed.  So to be getting involved with something new and completely different is a little bit scary.  I know I’m making the right decision by getting out of the industry I’m involved with so it has nothing to do with that.  I think it’s just a matter of stepping out of my comfort zone and starting a business in a completely different field that’s making me a little bit nervous.  Regardless, I’ve been through this before and I know I can handle it.

It’s sad to say, but I really can’t wait until I get out of this office.  It’s a negative work environment and there is a terrible vibe here.  You could cut the tension in this place with a knife and it’s sad to see how my business relationship with the other office manager has dissolved into what it is now; all because I didn’t step up and build the type of business that I thought I was going to build.  I feel as though I let them down more so than anything else and that’s what kills me.  I could care less if I’m struggling and broke but I hate to let other people down, especially someone who believed in me and gave me the opportunity that I was given with my debt settlement company.  It fucking breaks my heart and this is the thing I’ve had the most trouble dealing with throughout this experience.

For whatever reason I guess it wasn’t meant to be.  I guess we’ll see if this new business venture ends up being my “home run.”  When I was talking to my father last night I mentioned how I have never read or heard about a successful entrepreneur who hit it big with his first business.  Generally there would be at least several failed ventures under their belt before they were able to put together something that took off for them.  I think it comes with the territory because with every business you start, you learn something new and are able to apply that to your next project so you don’t make the same mistakes.  So every subsequent business venture has a higher chance of success because you can use that experience from your past to build a more solid foundation.

My first company, the real estate investment firm, didn’t work out.  My second company, the debt settlement business, didn’t work out.  Now I’m on my third and let’s just hope that “third time is the charm.”

I think claiming that I’m a serial entrepreneur is an accurate assessment.  I’m 28 years old and am already working on my third business and I’m sure whether this one turns out being hugely successful or just another stepping stone, it will definitely not be my last business venture.