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dubstep, wine, friday night…

this is more a post on general reflection.  fuck spell check because i dont have time for that shit and i’m writing now that i’m inspired.

my business is growing but not fast enough.  we currently have 3 closed deals and a 4th on the way but we want to be doing 20-30 a month, not fucking 4.  our marketing is fucked and it feels like everything we do is an uphill battle.  you hear these success stories of people talking about how they struggled for so fucking long then it “finally took off,” well what the fuck?  this goddamn jet has been sitting on the runway long enough.  i have a business meeting tomorrow with the other principals to discuss our current problems and try to find ways to resolve them; therefore tonight i’m staying in and finishing off a bottle of cab.

all this shit drives me fucking crazy because i’m so dedicated and won’t stop at anything until i hit my goal.  the thing that pisses me off is that i feel like it SHOULD NOT BE THIS HARD…  i started this goddamn blog two years ago and was working on various business endeavors for many years prior to starting my blog…  in fact, this has been a goal of mine since i moved to Arizona, which happened 7 FUCKING YEARS AGO.  What the fuck?!

a million dollars isnt a lot of money anyways so i don’t know why i’m having so much trouble getting there…  it sure as hell won’t buy you what it used to.

the company i work for currently, while i’m working on my own business is a perfect example of the type of shit that drives me nuts.  its run by a bunch of goddamn monkeys.  there is no organization whatsoever and their customer service is a fucking disaster.  the company as a whole is one of the most poorly run businesses i’ve ever been a part of, yet they are making millions…

goal was to have 500 properties by the end of 2012 and there is no way in hell that shit is happening with our current setup.  we keep spending money testing different marketing avenues and nothing seems to work.  its extremely frustrating.

i’ve said this so many times before and $1,000,000.00 is really not what i’m after.  its not the fucking money, its the FREEDOM that money provides.  the ability to do what you want, when you want.  the ability to travel, to enjoy life, to never worry about finances or bills.  THAT’s what i’m after…

7 fucking years.  i can’t believe it.  7 years and i’m still in the same fucking position i was in when i first moved…  unreal.

my only hope is the belief that all of the learning, and struggling, and growing as a man both personally and in business, has made me that much more likely to succeed now, verses in 2005.  without that, its like i wasted the last 7 years of my life.  i cant think that way.  i wont think that way…

it all has to be part of the process right?  steps in the right direction?  it fucking HAS to be…

currently listening to Lana Del Rey – Born to Die (Gemini Remix)

peace

When this happens, how much will my life really change?

Notice how I wrote “when” and not “if” because I truly believe it will happen and it’s actually beginning to happen now.  We just wrapped up another meeting with our new business partner and we are ironing out the last few wrinkles before we start selling; then it’s on!

Every once in a while I get in these moods where I reflect back and it gets hard to contain my emotions.  The weather is finally starting to cool off here in Arizona after a brutal summer and we are getting some rain.  When it rains it tends to make me think about my life in general; it’s kind of strange.

I’m really beginning to wonder that once I get to the point where I’m financially well off, will it be such a huge disappointment?  I’ve placed so much time, energy, stress and importance on achieving financial wealth that I can’t help but think that I’ve raised my expectations so high that there is no way in hell they will ever be met.

Let’s say I’m filthy fucking rich as of this very second.  I have the nice house, the cars, the clothes, the jewelery and all the other shit.  Then what?  What the fuck do I do from that point?

I’ve always stressed that the material possessions are just 1 aspect of why I want to be wealthy and they are by far the least important.  The thing that keeps me motivated and inspired is the thought of the freedom that wealth brings.  The thought of NEVER having to worry about another bill or stress about another expense for the rest of my life.  That’s what I’m after…

So lets say I get there, then what is left?  This has been my goal/dream since I graduated college.  I want to make my family and friends proud and I want them to be able to say, “you know what, I knew you were going to do it,” and MEAN THAT SHIT.  Once I’m there, I’m not sure what’s going to fuel my fire…

I guess that’s what life is all about.  Jumping forward with two feet into the unknown and letting whatever happens, happen.

I know that it’s not all about the money anyways.  That’s just what my goal is for the time being.  I will set a new goal after this one is hit, and I will keep setting goals and keep hitting them.

I really am looking forward to traveling and enjoying some of the finer things in life.  I’m still driving the same car from highschool and the fucking thing is dying a slow death.

94 Honda Accord with 250k miles, holla if ya hear me!!!

Peace.

Fat cat on my lap and business crap :)

shadow

shadow

There he is ladies and gentlemen, after over a year of writing on my blog you finally get to meet my fat cat Shadow.  He take’s laziness to a whole new level and is the only family I have in Arizona.  I adopted him when I first moved out here 6 years ago.  When I’m typing for my blog or just doing work in general he is usually taking a nap on my mini-fridge.  Seems to be his new favorite spot since I brought it from my old office a year ago.  So everyone say hello to Shadow; and be nice!  I know he’s a bit husky, but he’s happy so fuck off.

So I was hoping I’d have more feedback after our mass mailer hit and I don’t have anything.  The first day of it hitting was today and we didn’t get much action.  1 person submitted their info on our landing page, and we got 1 phone call, however both were from previous mailers.  The delivery on this mass mail campaign is typically 2-4 days and today was day “2,” so more will hit over the weekend and into Monday.  I just hope it generates some fucking leads because we need them badly.

I spoke to my business partner and he is going to try to hook me up with the job he is doing now while we get our own marketing ramped up.  He is closing deals even with the company provided shitty leads which is good because at least we can both earn a living while we work on perfecting our own marketing.  It will definitely relieve some stress to have some steady cashflow coming in.

What we are ultimately going to have to do is close their leads along with our’s, however on ours we will need to payout a bigger commission because of the costs to generate them.  Then once it gets to a point where our leads are coming in consistently and are of good quality, we will slowly wean ourselves off of their’s and focus strictly on ours.  I wish I could just slam my business partner with good leads right now but this is experimental for us and it does cost money to generate these fuckers so we really don’t have a choice at the moment.  We can make good money just selling their leads but in order for us to make the big bucks(50-100k) a month we’ll eventually have to be generating our own 100% of the time.  Also, they don’t seem as though they could generate enough for us anyways, even if they were excellent quality; which they are not.  If you can’t give me a lot of leads I will only be able to make a certain amount of money; this is why we need to generate our own.

I’m not really sure what to expect over the weekend but one thing I’ve learned is that the response is never immediate with these mail pieces.  Calls tend to trickle in over a certain period of time, which is why you have to keep sending them out even if you aren’t getting calls.  Keeping that pipeline full is crucial.

I also developed, what I feel to be, a much more effective mail piece and those started going out yesterday.  I’m going to continue to send those from now on and see what happens there.

Aside from our direct mail campaigns, I’m working with google adwords trying to get some leads there.  As always, that’s a royal pain in the ass and I just hope I can generate a few leads and figure out how to do it before my free credit is up.  One thing I won’t do is pay for google advertising out of my own pocket.  You’ll go broke faster than MC Hammer doing that shit.  If I ever do it again in the future, I’ll have money to spend and I’ll hire a professional to do it with a set budget.

So that’s work shit.  Tomorrow I’m sitting down with my business partner for a meeting in the morning and the remainder of the weekend will be low-key.  I’m not spending money because I don’t have it and I plan on working on my adwords campaign the entire time anyways.  Tonight I’ll chill out and watch some TV before hitting the sack.

Enjoy your weekends peeps.

Lates.

Monday evening thoughts and business updates

I just realized that I very rarely post on my blog at night.  I’ll write quick updates in the side bar, but as far as full blown blog posts go, they typically don’t happen.  I wonder why that is?

Anyways, today was a good and productive day.  We achieved the main goal that we set for ourselves which I’m happy about.  I also got my business partner to make something happen which is good as well.  I think he was just becoming complacent and lazy because there hasn’t been much for him to do since I’ve been doing the majority of the work thus far.  Also, the last 6 or so months our workload has been minimal because of the whole fiasco with our prior real estate gig.  I could tell when I spoke to him that he is starting to get excited whereas before I was questioning his faith.

I think the key with him is that he has to stay busy or his mind wanders and he just bitches and complains.  If he’s busy he feels things are happening and he’s going to make money.  He told me on several occasions that it’s the “action” he gets addicted to more so than the paycheck.  After going through these last several months together with little to no work, I can see where he is coming from.

Tomorrow our first direct mail marketing campaign hits so I’m looking forward to seeing what type of response we get.  The point is to drive traffic to one of our landing pages and get subscribers, however I also put my number on there so I won’t be surprised if I get some phone calls too; the more the merrier, bring it on! 🙂

I also have a meeting scheduled with my business partner for Wednesday morning so I’m sure we’ll have a lot of discuss once that rolls around.  Originally we set a goal to have a deal “pending” within 30 days (4/3/11) and I still think that’s doable.  We just need to start making offers soon because we will only have 2 weeks left after this week is over.  Basically, we need to get a lot done this week and make tons of progress if we want to hit our goal.

I just can’t wait until we get that first commission check with our business name written on it.  It’s going to be such an amazing feeling because we’ll know it can be done and we won’t have any more doubts.  We’ll also know that the sky is the limit because it then becomes a matter of simply repeating the same process.  There is no question that fortunes are being made in the current real estate market and it won’t be like this forever so I just hope I make my millions while I have the chance.

I’m confident I will.

Aside from that I feel great mentally and am optimistic and positive.  I just need to keep things this way and keep the momentum flowing in our favor.  We just need to close that first fucking deal and I know that from that point forward we are going to turn into a beast on a rampage.  It’s been so long since either of us have had a taste of some decent cash flow that once it happens we’re going to go berserk.  I can just feel it.

Finally laid to rest

The investor called me on Tuesday after I requested the documents from him, and after a 5-10minute conversation I was finally able to realize that he is 100% full of shit and it’s time for me to move on.  I got the closure I needed to put this fucker to sleep.

I’m not going to mention the specific thing he said that was a dead giveaway because there is no point dwelling on it any further.  It’s over and time to move on.

My business partner yesterday was in a funk so I told him I wanted to sit down with him this morning.  He was still upset about the investor situation but said he contacted the investor directly and got the closure he needed as well.  He has been dealing with other issues in terms of finances and I know it’s getting hard for him at home.  We got a lot of shit that was on our minds out in the open and I feel much better today.

So essentially, we are picking up where we left off and pressing forward.  We both need to be on the same page because this shit has to work and we have nothing else.  The thought of me getting a job and working for someone else makes me suicidal.  That’s not an exaggeration by the way; I’m dead serious when I say that.  On that notion alone I should be provided with enough motivation to make this thing work.

I have shit to get done so this is a short post but I wanted to update on what happened with the investor.  We’ve finally moved on and are looking towards brighter futures.

Peace.

Just put me out of my fucking misery

Yesterday morning I received an unexpected email from this “investor” we’ve been in contact with for the past several months.  The last contact we had with him prior to yesterday was over 2 weeks ago.  He basically was not sending us the information we requested on numerous occasions so we made a proposal to him based on what was told to us over the phone.

The way we viewed it was; “he’s probably full of shit, but let’s take our best shot anyways.”

After not hearing back from him on our proposal my business partner and I sat down and decided to head in another direction within real estate.  Once we made that choice, I felt like a million bucks.  I just felt like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I could now move forward and make some money.  I felt like I was no longer reliant on this “investor” for my success.

This past weekend I was working the entire time, and I got websites running for our marketing and was going through the necessary steps getting everything setup; then this email arrives and totally fucks my head up.  My business partner is also struggling with this because it puts us in a difficult situation.

If a deal is to be done with this investor, it will literally be a life-changer.  It’s not something that we will make a big commission on and that’s it.  It is something that will change my life forever because that’s how much money is involved.  So at the end of the day we don’t want to potentially ruin a deal from occurring if there is a chance.  If the deal does happen, we have absolutely no idea how much work is going to be involved which creates problems with what we are doing now.  We don’t want to spend or waste money on our current real estate venture when we aren’t 100% sure if we will be able to put in the time needed to make it successful.

In the email he said he is willing to send us the basic preliminary contract for our review and our attorney’s review.  Then from there we can make any adjustments or changes as needed.  We asked him to go ahead and do that and we are both waiting on that document now.

In the email he also stated that he thinks meeting is a good idea and he would prefer to come to Arizona.  He even gave a date range of the 3rd week of March in which he’d be willing to come down.  So it begs the question; “would he be willing to pay for a trip to see us, if he really didn’t feel a deal could be done?”  I suggested in our proposal that I’d be willing to fly and see him if need be but stated he rather come down here.

The problem is that the best way to handle situations like this, from my experience, is to keep busy.  Otherwise you will over-analyze shit and drive yourself crazy.  Unfortunately we are unable to keep busy because we’ve gone as far as we can go with our current venture without spending more money and we can’t waste more money unless we know 100% that it’s the direction we are heading in.

I almost feel as though we would have been better off if he never contacted us.  Who knows what’s going to come of this.  The guy is flakey and unreliable.  My business partner and I really aren’t sure what we are going to do.  If I don’t receive that document today I’m going to fucking lose my mind.  I don’t want to keep playing games with this asshole; my time is much too valuable.

I’m stressed the fuck out right now and there really isn’t much I can do except wait and see if he sends the contract…

Sunday before the gym, here’s what’s going on

So here’s the deal.  In my last post I was fairly down on myself just because of everything that happened with this investor douche bag.  Well right now I feel 100% better and have done a complete 180.

This new real estate thing we’ve started this week is really in-depth and thorough.  I feel that if we pursue it with 100% effort and follow all of the necessary steps we will be successful.  We started it officially last Wednesday and I’ve been putting in a lot of work since.  It just feels great to be busy again and to be in control.  The investor we wrote off entirely.  He never sent us the email like he said he would and we are just not going to waste our time initiating contact with him anymore.

Last Thursday and Friday I developed two web pages for our marketing; 1 landing page and 1 actual website.  We are going to start a direct mail campaign early this week and it will most likely go out on Tuesday.  Today I have to finish up some preliminary work and get some more research done, but this week will be busy for both me and my business partner.  In fact, we both will probably be busy from now on if things go well; God willing.

I had a meeting with him last week and we both stated that our goal was to have at least 1 deal pending in 30 days.  We had another meeting this morning and we broke down our goals for this week and what needs to be done.  He feels great and is excited and so do I.  It’s like we both had a “rebirth” of sorts.

On a completely different topic, my friend who was crashing on my couch has finally moved out.  After a month of staying here, he moved out yesterday.  I felt so relieved and it was good to see him go for both our sakes.  Now I don’t have anything slowing me down or holding me back.  I can press on with 100% effort.

One thing I need to do is update my goals and I keep putting that shit off.  I should set a goal of “updating my goals,” lol.  I’ll be sure to do that later today.

We have no other choice or option then what we are doing now so it has to work.  The good news is that we should know in a relatively short time period (30 days) if it’s going to pan out.  So I won’t be out on my ass if things don’t go well.  To be honest, I have a feeling they are going to go well and it’s going to be one of those things where we are going to say; “that’s it? Well that was easy,” after we close our first deal, and we are going to wonder why we didn’t get involved in this since the beginning.

I’m off to the gym in a bit, then back home to do some more work.  Enjoy the rest of your weekend’s people!  Peace.

So here’s the deal.  In my last post I was fairly down on myself just because of everything that happened with this investor douche bag.  Well right now I feel 100% better and have done a complete 180.

This new real estate thing we’ve started this week is really in-depth and thorough.  I feel that if we pursue it with 100% effort and follow all of the necessary steps we will be successful.  We started it officially last Wednesday and I’ve been putting in a lot of work since.  It just feels great to be busy again and to be in control.  The investor we wrote off entirely.  He never sent us the email like he said he would and we are just not going to waste our time initiating contact with him anymore.

Last Thursday and Friday I developed two web pages for our marketing; 1 landing page and 1 actual website.  We are going to start a direct mail campaign early this week and it will most likely go out on Tuesday.  Today I have to finish up some preliminary work and get some more research done, but this week will be busy for both me and my business partner.  In fact, we both will probably be busy from now on if things go well; God willing.

I had a meeting with him last week and we both stated that our goal was to have at least 1 deal pending in 30 days.  We had another meeting this morning and we broke down our goals for this week and what needs to be done.  He feels great and is excited and so do I.  It’s like we both had a “rebirth” of sorts.

On a completely different topic, my friend who was crashing on my couch has finally moved out.  After a month of staying here, he moved out yesterday.  I felt so relieved and it was good to see him go for both our sakes.  Now I don’t have anything slowing me down or holding me back.  I can press on with 100% effort.

One thing I need to do is update my goals and I keep putting that shit off.  I should set a goal of “updating my goals,” lol.  I’ll be sure to do that later today.

We have no other choice or option then what we are doing now so it has to work.  The good news is that we should know in a relatively short time period (30 days) if it’s going to pan out.  So I won’t be out on my ass if things don’t go well.  To be honest, I have a feeling they are going to go well and it’s going to be one of those things where we are going to say; “that’s it? Well that was easy,” after we close our first deal, and we are going to wonder why we didn’t get involved in this since the beginning.

I’m off to the gym in a bit, then back home to do some more work.  Enjoy the rest of your weekend’s people!  Peace.

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